You are your own worst critic.

The repetetive rejections of "settled jobs" instead of desired jobs.

This is a good idea which most people will never follow though it would be the best medicine ever for those who do follow this tip.

I leave you with this. go find Les Brown and watch his motivational videos. He has a few quotes which will help motivate the most obstinate procrastinators.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbD02DlUapg

You can't get out live ALIVE.