when working for/with bad people it is difficult to be positive
First I know i'm not the best tech person out there. I wasn't first hired for my skills (limited at the time) but because of the way I interacted with internal and external customers. My learning curve has been steep and at times frustrating but mostly rewarding. My work load has increased substantially not because of the number of people I assist but because of the number and breadth of equipment we now provide to our "community" and i do it pretty much alone....
What makes everything depressing is the people who I work with. I love my supervisor, great man, knowledgeable, helpful, kind, with decent perspective on work life/family balance, but not a good manager. He gives me a task, i get it done, no handholding, status reports/ endless updates required. If I screw up, I apologize, I fix it, WE move on.
When you work for someone like that you don't always mind getting busier and letting your work/home life getting a little out of balance once and awhile as often happens in this industry.
The problem is when people don't know how to behave in the work place.
My supervisor hired a 20 something programmer about 9 months ago after discussing it with me. This programmer was known to us and our organization when he was a student, some liked him some didn't. I though it would be great to have a talented individual who could do the things i'm only so-so at and could free up my and my 'supers' time so we could accomplish other tasks.
It hasn't turned out that way, I pride myself on not playing games/politics in the office, this child does.....unfortunately so does the head of our organization. They are a poisonous combination that no one can escape and have gone so far as to disparage people in meetings and openly as they wander hallways; and yes you may have guessed I was one of the objects of ridicule on more than one occasion.
You know things are bad when you are repeatedly called to the top dogs office to explain why something something doesn't work even after you warned your super and the boss of the potential pitfalls. If the hotshot says it will work and it doesn't.......well he says it's your fault then it must be so Jim!
You know things are really really bad when you not only find yourself wanting to leave a job and career that you love but when you find that you want to harm yourself you know it's too late...The BS is not worth it,
Sound like bitching and moaning? probably. Sound like self victimization? call it what you will, but I give up. I've never complained, never been in the boss's face daily about all that i've acomplished that day, that hour, that minute; never mind all the overtime or midnight calls from the boss to get me to fix something she Fk'ed up. I'm done.
Thanks for the understanding,
Suffering no more.
