You must have been insulted a decade ago and still you cannot get over it, I guess. You rather make nice theory to support your belief than face that you should change. Instead you enjoy the benefit: it's non-renewable = I don't need to change.

You just forget one thing: it's your life - and you can live it only once. You have the choice every day: you live a miserable life, or you get yourself together and make a real life for you. Do your choice until it's late. I'm sure you can make it.