Killing yourself trying to keep us happy isn't really a long term option. So look after yourself and get better ASAP.
Returning to work way too early has never done anyone any favours and has always resulted in longer times off work and making whatever you have worse.
So Soni look after yourself and get better sooner rather than latter.
My Condolences for your loss I hope they didn't suffer.
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