I am a computer-holic.
What does it mean to be addicted to computers? I used to have many friends and enjoyed things like going outdoors or watching television. But everything changed when I was a teenager. I bought my first PC, and ended up addicted. It was a Compaq portable PC that was slow, but still, I was hooked.
In school you never really sit and think -Oh does this person have a problem? Do you think they should spend so much time with computers? …The only problem was, every time I bought another computer I would wake up with more remorse. So the worse I felt, the more I had to get a faster and more powerful computer.
It’s definitely an addiction, and I couldn’t stop. I didn’t want to stop, and I didn’t know how to stop, even if I did.
At first I didn’t think that I had a problem. –I completely have this under control? was my constant thought. I thought –Oh, what’s wrong with having more than one PC under your desk? Everybody has more than one PC.
Well, no they don’t -nobody has an eight-port KVM at their desk or a locking server cabinet with dual Compaq DL-380s and a rack mount APC UPS…..except people like me who have a problem.
Deep down I knew that normal people do not have a RADIUS server for WLAN authentication as well as a Microsoft Exchange email server and a SharePoint server on their home network. But the denial was too great and the lure of the silicon too strong.
Today I woke up in a pile of cat5e cabling with a crimping tool clenched in my fist…. there were hard drives and CDs scattered all over the floor….a sad and pathetic sight.
I knew I had gone too far….I knew I needed help, bad.
So today I am going to a treatment recovery center to get help with my computer addiction.
Unfortunately the treatment recovery center is right next to Fry’s Electronics…. 🙂
